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| God has finally given me my decision, and I am going to OSU and rooming with Neil and mabey Seth. I never thought that I would be spending college with people that I knew, and people that I actually have amazing friendships with. Neil and I have only hung out like 4-5 times ever, and that totals about 20 total hours of friendship time, but Neil and I have this tight connection. It is like God is pulling us closer to one another to be friends, and I think that we will have a life long friendship which will start this coming fall at OSU. The same with Seth. We have only hung out at church camp for like 4-5 weeks, but we are buds. I haven't talked to Seth about the rooming thing yet though. I couldn't get ahold of him. I don't even know if I have his correct phone number, but if not some one else will have a pretty weird message on their phone. LOL. well, that relieved alot of stressful buildup. Thanks God. Your timing not mine, and it is perfect. Amen. ( I just amen'd myself. Is that allowed?) kurt P.S. I got the new Building 429 CD yesterday. I got it early yeah, and not just one copy, but 2 copies. That is right, I am the epitime of COOL. ok JK, but I did get the CD's. | | |
| I just wanted to let you all know that I LOVE God. He has been having me think a lot lately. I was thinking the other day...(It was cool)...And I thought to myself. "what if learning from other people about God is like rounding fractions in math. You are supposed to round them at the very end, once you are totally done right. So, you go through life listing to the testimonies of other people about God. They tell you what he is like through words that they feel describe Him, but what if their words are different from what the Bible tells you? Then, you take what they said for granted, and you tell someone else what they said, but yours is just a little different from what the person who told you said. Now you are even further from the bible than what the person told you. So, this goes on for sometime, and you now have some warped version of who God is, what he stands for, and what he has said. You end up not knowing who God really is. So, how can you really serve someone you don't even know? You can't! Through my thoughts, I have only found one way to prevent this from happening to me. I have to read the Bible in its entirety, the whole thing, all the way through. So, I started last Saturday. I want to know the real Jesus, the real God, and the real way to live how He wants me to live. Genesis is where it is at baby! Well, the begining of the Bible that is, and that is where I am at. So, let me know what you think about my reasoning, and thought process becasue I feel it makes sense right now. Love ya all. Prom is the April 21st, and graduation is May 26th. Camp starts, what the 9th? I can't wait to be in the presence of God atop a beautiful, grassy, tree encircled hill with a stone altar and an old rugged cross. He is everywhere, but He seems so much closer while we are there, and I know that is the one place, at least, that He will meet me every year. I can't wait to experience Him and learn. We will all join in together and sing Halejuha kurt | | |
| So, alot is running through my head right now. I have been trying to help Kara answer some spiritual questions that she was wondering about, and they sparked some that I had as well. The most confusing one is about predestination. I do not know what to think. It is in the bible, so it has to be true, but it does not seem like the God that I know. I am so confused! How could God leave some people out of the greatest thing EVER? How does he choose who goes to heaven and hell? Why does he choose to leave some people out and to claim others? Isn't God such a loving and caring and never harmful being? How could it be that some people never have a chance to go to heaven and others are Predestined to end up there? Doesn't God give us the freedom of choice, to choose him or our life here on earth? From what I am gathering, everyone is predestined to heaven or hell, they have no choice in it, and it wasn't even my choice to choose to follow the God that I so much love more than anything else. I am really confused about this right now, and I would really appreciate any help you guys could provide me with because if I do not know what I believe and why I believe it, then there might be some future problems for me in standing up for it and following it. love you guys, kurt I have faith that God will show me what I need to know all in his perfectly planned timing. Until then, I am still wondering. | | |
| So, GOD is stupendious. I am sitting at my desk with piles of scholarship applications, and all I can think about is how awesome he is. I havent been to CLC in three weeks at least, and I went yesterday. God was there and I worshiped him with what he gave me. It was good. I love worshiping god. Then, the message was about sex. The entire screen was plastered with the word sex in big font something like this size...SEX! So the text was about 100 times bigger but you get the picture. Any way. It is not something that I have been thinking about lately. It is something that I have pretty much been trying to not think about. Many guys are naturally inclined to think lustfully about girls, but that is so narrow minded. It is not easy to change their way of viewing women, but it can be done. I have found that it is much better to look at a girl the same way you look at a guy. Not checking them out. LOL. I used to think that the only way that guys could interact with girls was if they were "going out". I was mistaken. Girls can make even better friends than guys sometimes, and I have found an amazing friend. What is even more amazing is that she is a girl. Any way, during this message at CLC(Christian Life Center, youth group thing) all I could think about is how much I want our relationship to be centered on God, and how awesome it is going to be. I do not know if this is the girl that I am supposed to marry, but I do know that if it is, I want God to be happy with the way we are together, act together, the things we do together, the way that we think about eachother, the way we touch eachother, the way we talk to one another. Anything that we do together, God should be pleased. I have been thinking. Obviously. LOL. And in everything that we do, we should be able to worship GOD doing it. I have not had much experience. So, I am not so good at the whole boyfriend girlfriend thing yet, but I know I do not want to displease God whatever I do. I just wanted to ask for some advice and some prayer. My girlfriend's name is Kara and she is a christian.. Please just pray that God gives me the guidance I need in this relationship. I know that all I need to do is ask and I shall recieve, but it feels alot better having others ask God on my behalf too. Thanks guys, kurt | | |
| I'll update a little later. I'm a bit busy. Got somethings to let ya knows, but just need some time to type it all out! K? | | |
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